Last night right before our bedtime prayers for the girls, G. gave me a big hug and we had this conversation:
G: “I have two loves, Mommy.” Me: “Who are your two loves?” G: “Them.” *points to my husband and L. Me: “Daddy and L?” G: “Yes.” Me: “Well, I have three loves, you, Daddy, and L. But Daddy is my best love.” G: “You are MY best love!”
Then my husband interjected: “Well your smallest love needs your attention.” L. had been fussing for me the whole time.
I told him, “Sorry, G. and I were having a moment.”
“Nothing Without You” by Bebo Norman is a song that I have always felt drawn to and it has applied to my life differently throughout my life. I heard it today, and it really spoke to me about the mother and wife I am called to be. You can watch the video below that has the lyrics, but I will also post them below and write about how they affected me.
Take these hands and lift them up For I have not the strength to praise You near enough See I have nothing, I have nothing without You
I have always thought of raising hands in praise when I heard these lines, but today I thought of how I use my hands. What I do with my hands is also a way to praise God, and the love I have when using my hands can offer my activities to him.
Everything a mother does for her family involves her hands; praying, holding, changing diapers, dressing, washing children, washing dishes, cleaning the home, etc. But a mother and wife does not have the strength to do all of this without God’s love and grace, and it can wear her down and make her unhappy. God will keep a mother strong.
Take my voice and pour it out Let it sing the songs of mercy I have found For I have nothing, I have nothing without You
I can sing songs of praise to God and tell others of his love and mercy, but what I say to others, how I say it to others, what I say about others reflects this even more. The way a wife speaks to her husband, the way she asks him to do something, what she chooses to say first thing in the morning or when he walks in the door from work all are an offering to God and all can bring more love or hurt to the home. The way a mother speaks to her children when they misbehave or do good acts or simply get into trouble all bring glory to God or not. If I am unkind in the way I speak, my voice is not bringing God glory, but if I have patience and kindness in my voice even when reprimanding this is an act of love.
All my soul needs Is all Your love to cover me So all the world will see That I have nothing without You
A wife and mother needs to be covered in the love of God in order to live out what she is called to do. My mother prayed for me yesterday that God’s love would overflow out of me into the way I loved my children; I think this chorus reflects that idea. And when we pour love into our family, the world does see, and the world is given hope.
Take my body and build it up May it be broken as an offering of love For I have nothing, I have nothing without You
I think this speaks the most to me as a wife and mother; the daily grind really involves the whole body. And for children, a mother’s body really is broken as an offering of love; in this way we reflect Christ. It is done to a mother when she accepts the call to be one throughout pregnancy, the pains of labor, the giving birth, and then her choices to breastfeed, and nurture her children through naps, bedtimes, feedings, and play times. But still she has nothing without God and his mercy and love.
I also love the line asking God to build up one’s body; it shows the glory that God gives to nature and the beauty in our bodies despite our falleness.
All my soul needs Is all Your love to cover me So all the world will see That I have nothing But I love You
With all my heart With all my soul With all my mind With all the strength that I can find
And here we remember that our actions are rooted in our heart, soul, and mind. Our actions affect them and they affect our actions. We need God to help us love and serve. And we need to take time for prayer, for praying asks God for His grace, praises him, and keeps Him foremost in one’s heart, mind, and soul throughout the day. I am always happier when I remember to pray while doing mundane tasks like putting the kids down for naps and cooking and washing.
“With all my mind.” I particularly need to spend my time doing things that will help me think about good things, and loving things. What I do during my free time stays in my mind and affects my heart and my soul and my actions. I know I personally want to use my mind for more than taking care of children; and struggle for the discipline to discipline my mind.
Take my time here on this earth And let it glorify all that You are worth For I am nothing, I am nothing without You
I am nothing without God, and my time on earth is for Him. And as a wife and mother, I also am called to help my husband and children glorify God with their lives as well.
While talking to some other mom’s about cooking a few weeks ago, I admitted that if I would love to have someone watch my kids for me so that I could focus on cooking dinner every night. I really like to cook, and I like to cook nice meals and I want to learn to cook even better meals. I have also been day dreaming about what I would love in a kitchen. Maybe one day I will actually have counter space. I think a dream kitchen is not too much to ask for, especially if we have as many kids as we talk about having.
1) Children old enough to wash the dishes. 2) Children old enough to watch the younger ones while I cook. 3) Lots of counter space and an island to work on. 4) A six burner gas stove. I have only used gas at my mother-in-laws, but I know it is superior when it comes to cooking good food and want to learn how to use one. 5) Two ovens. I have seen kitchens with this feature and I love it. I guess having a toaster oven is kind of like this, but two full size would be wonderful! 6) A warmer drawer; my sister has one and it is so convenient! (I am taking a lot of things from my sister’s kitchen.) 7) A large two basin sink. 8) A large dishwasher. 9) Ample cupboard space. 10) A walk-in pantry. 11) A deep freeze.
Cooking appliances and accessories: 1) Kitchen-aid pasta flattener attachment. 2) Food processor that is easy to clean. 3) So glad to finally have a double boiler! 4) Round biscuit cutter; I am not sure why I do not have one of these yet.
I am sure there is more, and I don’t think this is too much to ask. 🙂